While I’m stressing about so many small things, I think back to my teacher who knows a family that lost their baby son last week. With all of the issues I’m dealing with, not one even comes close to losing someone from your life forever. I am thankful for my life even with the pain and stress it has, and my heart goes out to all of those who have lost a loved one recently.
Last night, my friend asked me if I wanted to go the movies, and I thought she meant today or some later time, but she meant that moment. I decided to go even though I was ready for bed watching the Golden Globes at 7:40. That’s me on a Sunday hahaha. No movies really started til after 9, but I picked her up anyway, and we just drove around for a bit and had lots of time to talk. I think it was really great to really interact. Text and facebook are so limited, and I think that just meeting somebody once can really do a whole lot more than a long facebook conversation. We ended up seeing “Beauty and the Beast” in 3D since most things are rated R and I don’t turn 17 til the 28th. It was a really nice evening :)
Sometimes I watch others performing. I am a very professional singer, and I know the ins and outs of the craft fairly well, so whenever I hear people that are a bit off, I think about the few things they could do to make everything perfect! I am jolted by an urge to offer this person help with music, but of course that would offend them. It’s hardest for us to hear ourselves though, so I wonder if some people know what they’re even doing wrong. I just want to help….
We just got back from winter break this week, and now we have Friday and Monday off, so it’s a 4-day weekend. I love the freedom that comes with 4 days of choice. I hate having a regulated schedule that never changes. I like switching things up. A general routine has some benefits, but changing it up occasionally is actually better for the brain! I have the freedom now to spend my whole days on my little bit of homework, reading, videogames, working on singing, socializing, or anything else I really want to do! It’s wonderful :)
Throughout middle school, I stuck to high moral ground, anybody who didn’t agree with me or made choices that I deemed poor were sorta blacklisted. I was judgmental and got into arguments all the time. I could feel the heat in my skull every time things started to get out of hand, but I never wanted to cave and show weakness. I hate seeming weak. When I was going into high school, I decided that I wanted to change. I figured that any time was as good as any other to change myself, so why not high school? I started to accept more people and stop judging people by their choices in certain areas. Everybody has their own life to live, and I have no right to tell them how to live it unless their choices are affecting me in some important way. Each year, I’ve been growing even more in this mission. I am also a positive influence on a lot of people in my life now. I even rant sometimes philosophically or just throw in random sayings here and there. It’s just part of what I do. My friends accept me for my oddities because they know that I’ll always accept them. If you can’t beat ‘em, join ‘em, right? hahaha
thereisafineline asked: Why are all your poems so great?? I haven't been able to write in what seems like forever..lol =))
Thanks a lot :D I just sorta have an overwhelming emotion, and I feel like I have to express it in words. You’ve already written about 200 songs, so I think you’ve reached your quota for awhile XD
My heart expands, but not in the kind of way that kills people
It is full of molten, Spring-y, decadent love.
Yet it flies to the top of the Universe
It’s limitless in possibility, nobody says no to love
Some don’t say yes either, but their hearts always do
People yearn to feel the floating lava expanding their ribcage
Like a lofty cathedral.
Why did Leonardo and the Wrights search for wings when love is the only fuel you need?
Spread your light and float to the apex of humanity
Become that which we all aspire to be.
Embody love, and your life will never lose meaning
Love never loses meaning
Caring is always cared about
The greatest fear of many is that they care more about people than those people care about them.
It’s no fear of mine, but a reality
I know that I love and care more than anyone else possibly could
My love, my strength, my life could lift me to the Heavens
And it would rain down on everyone and nourish them
Empty would turn to full
More important than the lack of food is the lack of love
You may be able to eat dirt instead of food, but love has no replacement
Nothing else heals you
Nothing else completes you
Love bridges gaps, love fills the crevasses, love brings all Creation together
Love is pure because it is not a construct of man
Rather, love is man
I lifted it
I lifted it all
With no regard for myself
And now I’m rather small
My feet became ash
The load seemed to grow
But I lifted it all
Both my friend and my foe
My fingers are limp
I’m slumped in my chair
I’ll take ten pounds more
Whatever is fair
Grey matter is on the walls
Dripping to the floor
A perfect, justified sacrifice
Nothing I’d rather give myself for
My body isn’t empty
Although it’s disappeared
Love and friendship never die
As all of my friends feared
Your souls are chained
You’re all afraid
Just let me know
And in your boxes, I’ll be laid
A lot of people post pictures and funny cartoons, but I stick to my long, drawn-out opinions. I think that tumblr is equally amazing for both. I love the other blogs I follow because they repost the most hilarious things. I suppose that I provide a bit more thought than most other blogs while being incredibly funny and sarcastic ;) or not haha, but I try to keep it interesting.